kades
22 April 2008 @ 10:49 pm
Indecisive should be my middle name. Left, right. Left, right. Left, right. I feel like Bella Swan, and it makes me want to smack myself. Hard.

All this ridiculous indecision has led me to do something I would normally never do. I'm going to share. This is my first time sharing this work with anyone, outside of my writing-buddy and eventual first reader Shannon (thank you, darling).

MOST OF YOU KNOW I'M WORKING ON MY FIRST NOVEL... )

I also have to mention the new KStew and RPattz interview that we got for MTV's Twilight Tuesday today. If you haven't watched it, go do so right now because it is hilarious. I almost get the impression that they went into this interview claiming they were going to flat out lie about certain things, because otherwise her bleeped out "fuck you" that results in his delighted, giggly "oops" makes no sense whatsoever. She watches him so closely when he goes to answer... something was up they day MTV did this series of interviews. She watches him so closely throughout the entire interview, in fact, that she finds it necessary to pick something out of his teeth. Really now, KStew?

p.s. I have finally gotten a new layout.
 
 
Current Mood: nervous
Current Music: Ain't No Sunshine - Lighthouse Family
 
 
kades
04 April 2008 @ 01:39 pm
Large doses of Imogen Heap this week. It's been one of those weeks where my mantra is, "Do the best you can. No one can ask more of you." There is so much in my head, all these little scribblings and crowding words and spare bits of paper and sadness. I'm trying to remind myself that it's not his death that is sad, it's the empty spots he leaves behind, and the loss everyone is feeling. I leave tomorrow morning to drive to Florida so I can be there for the memorial, and I'm not really sure what to expect. I guess I'll have four and a half free hours of asphalt and yellow stripes to figure it out.

I cannot get the new apartment out of my head. I think about it constantly, and I can only take it as a good sign-- that I've connected with this new place. The universe has been lending a helping hand lately, which makes me all the more trusting. It could pick me up with the wind and carry me like a dandelion seed across the wide world without a single question from me. It always feel right in my heart.


THE NEW APARTMENT & OTHER THINGS I'M THINKING ABOUT )


As usual, would love to know what you guys think...!
 
 
Current Mood: anxious
Current Music: Must Be Dreaming - Frou Frou
 
 
kades
11 March 2008 @ 10:04 pm
Right now, I really want a cupcake. Badly.

Now that I've said that and it's out of the way (but not my cravings, dammitt!), I want to share a great little video I found at GraphicDesignBar this morning. It's one of those projects that you sit and stare in awe at, all the while thinking, "I could do this. Why didn't I think of this?" Ze Frank would probably blame it on the brain crack (if you don't know who Ze Frank is, please google 'ze frank brain crack' and have a good laugh on me). Anyways, watch and enjoy while I continue this head-bashing-against-wall movement commonly recognized as studying for finals.



Don't you want to do this with your own kids now?
 
 
Current Mood: productive
Current Music: Hysteria - Muse
 
 
kades
22 January 2007 @ 09:42 pm
Worked on a couple more postcards this afternoon. Watched way too much Harry Potter. Slept while the rain lashed the window. Laughed way too much during lunch at Bobby's Diner and in car on the ride back. I'm so appreciative for these new friends. They're no movie night gang, granted, but they're something. Enjoyed kicking puddle water into the air and making my friends squeal and run. I wish it could just simply be these moments. That when I'm alone and it's silent, that some of these burdens would just release themselves. I've said a lot of mean things the last few weeks. Things I didn't mean. Things I don't generally say unless I'm having a laugh. Something has to budge. Someone has to move. Until then, I'll just sit and watch and wait. The lady bugs come to you when you're asleep in the grass, not while you're running through the woods.


THE DEFINITION OF HAPPINESS )
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Current Mood: relaxed
Current Music: Every Little Thing - Dishwalla